Yup, still up. I did go to bed at 8:00 last night...but only because I didn't sleep at all the night before. And here I am again. 
I am so thankful for my friend SSC -- she brings so much perspective and wisdom and God to any situation and she did that for me tonight.
We met with the principal and a pastor today to further discuss the whole TAB situation.  I knew going in it would not go our way, and while I still think the school is wrong, I understand that they will not change their minds at this point.
The CHURCH on the other hand...I am struggling with so so much.  I'm SO angry and hurt and betrayed. I completely feel like I can't trust anyone there -- anything I say will be passed on and held against me. I learned today that the above-mentioned pastor knows what's on my FB!!!!  Now, I'm not 14, I get the fact that you have to watch what you say because once it's out there it's out there. My question is...why are they following my FB?? What are they hoping to find?? It all seems very big brother-ish to me.  Totally freaked me out! An e-mail I sent to another staff member was forwarded directly on.
Besides that though, I just don't understand how a church completely abandons a 13-year old kid.  I just don't get it. They won't even talk to him.  I implored the pastor today that that's the LEAST he could do would be to talk to him. He said he's afraid he'll make things worse, that he'll say the wrong thing, that this is beyond his capabilities.  I said don't counsel him, just have a conversation; let TAB do the talking, get to know him. NOT ONE of the decision makers knows him or has talked to him. I just don't get it.  We're told every week from the pulpit to not let fear dictate our decisions, yet that is exactly what they are doing....
Back to SSC. They went through a similar situation with the school and ultimately church last year and she said she came to the realization that as much as God loves completely imperfect me, He also loves his completely imperfect church. Every person involved in this is just that -- a fallible human being, clearly capable of messing up (like me), yet still totally loved (like me). Through it all, she kept going to church and serving because it's all about God, not the people. The word is still true, whether the people hearing it (me or others) walk it out or not, doesn't change the truth of the word. She's been able to forgive and move forward. Her husband is not totally there yet, but he's headed that way.
I am NOT there. In all honesty I don't want to be there yet. I'm not willing to give up the anger just yet.
I do know however that I need to be an example for TAB in all of this and my anger and bitterness is not the example I want to set.
So...I will draw closer to God and let him do what he wants to do...it's really my only choice right now. I've got nothing. He is everything.