The tears won't stop...

The past couple of days JAB has been very angry and cold. Completely ignoring me or giving me one word answers. Last night I finally asked if he had something to say. We kind of just went over all the same old stuff. He just doesn't understand. He may never be able to understand, and I'm not sure what to do with that. Really, he doesn't have to understand. But I wish he would. Mostly I came away being told that I'm selfish, it's all about me, I'm a quitter and if I feel we need a break then I should leave. He'll be the dad. I asked him if he would feed them, and do homework, etc., and he said yes, if he had to he could do it. That drives me mental. If you think you can do it, why haven't you been doing it???!? Part of me wants to grab onto the idea of me leaving and RUN with it. I can't even adequately communicate how totally drained and exhausted I am. And I just feel like he does not care about me at all. That's not what I signed up for when I got married. I did sign up for "sickness and in health" and I was reminded about that last night. I feel so alone. So unable to do "this" anymore. I hate him so much sometimes. Last night I cried like I haven't cried in a long time. Sobbing.... And today I had to leave work, because I couldn't pull it together. Even now...I'm going to bed. So tired. I just want it all to stop hurting so much...